Different Levels In The Video Game Of Life - Right?
May 15, 2026 · by anuwinnie
As some of you may know, my last role was a difficult one with the stakeholder group I had, and it felt like all I could do was keep my head above water most of the time. It was such a roller-coaster journey, both internal and external, that left me with inner turmoil I had never experienced before. But I must have learnt my lessons as this new role came up.
That space has given my inner waters time to calm down after all the murkiness, so there is more clarity. I am experiencing insights with clarity, and they keep coming up - maybe the last experience stirred up so much churn that now that it is settling, there is a lot more clarity from the depth.
One of them is the ability to observe the inner workings without letting it spill into the outside world. It’s as if there is space between reaction and response - there is a gap which gives me space to pause automatically. All of this is a new experience, and who knows how long it will last, but for now I am relishing it. Like, I am in a meeting, and whatever is happening is making me really angry - I can feel the anger rise into my mind or wherever and go kaboom. And I can watch it while remaining calm on the outside - this has never happened with such clarity and frequency. The first time it happened, I was surprised to find that I had the freedom not to get angry but to watch it and continue as I wanted.
Learn to delay your reaction. Anger, fear and Impulse will make you move fast. There’s power in pausing. The wisdom lives in the pause. In the pause you see clearly, you respond wisely, and you avoid decisions you’ll regret. Slow Down To Speed Up.
This is what Vipassana meditation is all about - finding the gap between reaction and response. It is some sort of personal mastery for which I am very grateful. There are so many things where my internal workings have nothing to do with the external world. Like I may have got a not-so-nice email from one of my stakeholders, and I am in a meeting, without my knowing that the nastiness of the email spills over into the meeting. And the meeting audience has no clue where this is coming from. There are stages to it - first, complete unawareness that you are reacting to the email; second, knowing that you are reacting to the email. Still, you are unable to stop the reaction, and the last is knowing that there is a reaction from the email and being able to observe it rather than acting it out.
When anger take control, reason quietly walks out. Your reaction in anger destroys relationships. React Wisely. True strength is not striking back but in letting go. Not everything that hurts you deserves your extreme reaction in return.
If life is a video game, then each level has a different aspect to it - some levels make my inner world go all murky, and some levels are filled with insights. But each level brings me closer to my purpose: ‘Being a better version of myself every day and inspiring others to do the same.’ Every day, there is more clarity - even if it is murky - it is all for the good. It is hard to see that some days. The universe is friendly - and it wants you to learn the lessons - it is up to us how we want to learn the lessons. A gentle nudge or a jump off the cliff is our choice - if we are aware of the nudges and pushes from the universe, then you can use those. The only way out of something is through it - and what comes on the other end is a much better you. After all, life is working on each of us - chiseling us, sculpting us so that we can shine and our true potential shines through.
Today, I am just grateful - nothing specific, just grateful. Sometimes in life, no explanation is needed - you could find one if you thought enough, but it does not matter. What matters is who you are being in the moment.